Is turning into your mom really that bad?

Oh we hear it all the time, I realized today I am my mother. Well is that really that bad? Oh how funny, being that teenager and in our early twenties, we know EVERYTHING, don;t we? I am just shocked of where I was and where I am with my views, and how I want to raise my kids to view the world. Yes I have my own ways of how I parent and that is good when mixed in with the way my parents raised me.

With age comes wisdom. Only 31 years into this life; I have so much to learn and yet have learned so much. Did you think when you were growing up you would actually start wanting to be like your mom or even your parents? I sure never thought I would have so much respect for my parents. But life does a 180 and what you thought you would never be, you actually become. Well for some of us!

Many of us grow up wishing to be as far away from where we grew up. Many of us follow that path. For me, absence made the heart grow fonder. Never thought I would be the one living a block from my parents. That's what happened. Absence was what made my heart need and want my family close by. I realized quickly, my family was and is my rock. I needed them, I wasn't the personality to move on and make me a new world.

Proudly, I moved back, made more very dumb decisions. Finally, I realized my calling, being a mom. My son was born and everything fell into place for me. No he didn't come with a manual but my love for him was my guide. I nourished him and went to my mom for help surprise, surprise she was there. That unconditional love from her gave me the confidence a new mom needs. Her openness to help and step in and out was so amazing. It certainly wasn't like that through my teen years. I was a dare devil, I stepped into the life that was defintily more risky that I would hope for my very children. I can see now why she wanted to try to keep me safe.

I hope that when my kids are teenagers and in that stage I am just like my mom. I hope and pray my children are nothing like I was, chances are they will be just the same, little hellians. I see my hair turning gray super fast, I see me losing many battles, and I see my children challenging me the way I challenged my parents. Though that is a lengthy 10 years away. I still am dreading it. I am affraid of the things they will choose to try. I tried and did far too many things at too young an age. So for me, becoming my mother is not going to be bad at all, in fact, becoming my mother would be a pleasure. Yes there are traits I am hoping skip me, but ya know what there are traits I already have in me I wish I didn't. Seeing those flaws and working on improving them is always an option.

This path is not nesecarily true for all, I am sympathetic to those who were not born to a loving mother, a mother who raised them with all the support and tenderness in which I was raised. For those peole, I can only hope they have the understanding that though their biological mom wasn't that person, somebody else was. Though there are others that had no one to care and love for them. These people have a unique challenge in life. All of us have a different path. I can acknowledge many are not as lucky as I was and am. I hope for many they have been able to find their purpose and reason in life. Good Luck to all!

This post is for my mom pictured below with her four beautiful grandchildren!! She's an amazing woman!!!